Have not been here in an unbelievable amount of time. Have not done any work in that same period of time. One excuse, if there is any, was that for a long time I was taking a medicine that kicked my butt. So tired I could hardly standup, and forget working. You see in 1969 I contracted Hepatitis C and have had it since. There is now a cure. Before I was looking at the only possibility of getting rid of it as a liver transplant at some time (though the reinfection rate within 6 months is near 100%) but there-is medicine to effect a cure in 3 to 6 months. I am happy to say that I am now cured, 100% virus free. The drug costs $36,000 per month. I was able to get into an investigational program which paid most or nearly all the cost. But I , like many others who have taken it, nearly quit. The fatigue and depression were nearly deadly; but I wanted to be free of the virus, so I gritted my teeth and swallowed my pills. In time my lab tests showed less and less virus and that encouraged me to finish the trial. One of the happiest days of my life was the day of a followup checkup when the doctor handed me a report on the last blood test. where she had written "No virus detected. You are cured!"
I'm a little disappointed though, I think I had an unrealistic and overoptimistic idea of how it would feel not to have the virus anymore. Physically I only feel a little better, because, I think, of the extensive liver damage and the long time I had it and the effect it had on other organs, and that I'm 66 not 18 I ike I was when I got it (yes I had it my whole adult life) Mentally, much improved, I no longer have to awaken every morning wondering if this is the day it begins the final sequence of events that will culminate in death by massive organ failure. That certainly changes your outlook!
My body doesn't ache all the time, a bone deep ache, and though I'm tired, and tire easy, it"s no longer the the kind of tired no amount of sleep ever relives. Now a nights sleep lets me start off refreshed and with some energy.
Mentally as I said, much relived; except that while doing ultrasound imaging before I began the drug, to check the size and condition of the liver; they found something else I now have to worry about.
An Abdominal Aortic Anuerism or AAA as we like to call it. As of right now I'm wait and see status to see if it grows any. At 8cm I have no option but surgery. It is scary because I can burst at anytime with no warning and almost no symptoms when it does. Of those who have a AAA burst 90% die before an ambulance can arrive and of the 10% who survive until an ambulance, 90+% die before they can reach a hospital. So a burst AAA s 99% fatal. So I get now to worry about that, but at least it's quick and relatively painless, so I understand.
Listening to: silence as always
Reading: my palms, and I see a very very ...
Watching: the world go by
Playing: I don't play that!
Eating: Nothing that I wish I were
Drinking: Dr Pepper !!